Subete no Owari no Hajimari すべての終わりの始まり

Anime: Angel Beats!  エンジェルビーツ! (Enjeru Bītsu!)

Artist: Suzuyu

Album: Angel Beats! PERFECT Vocal Collection

Romaji:

Dare to ita no kana   mou mienai
Wasurenakya ikenai koto wakatteru

Nani wo shiteta darou   konna sekai de
Subete no owari no hajimari wa mou sunde irunda ne

Utsumuku no wa yosou   mou koukai shinaide susumeru youni
Itsuka kuru wakare ni kokoro ga hikisakaresou ni naru higa kuru koto wa
Mou juubun wakatte iru
Itsuka subete ga owatte nani ga matte iru to iu
Dare mo inaku natte nao irareru ka kanashimi to

Nani wo tsukutte mo ushinau dake
Suna no shiro no youni moroku kuzuresatte yuku

Chanto wakatteiru   demo toki ni yowasa wo misetaku mo naru
Itsuka wasurerareru ka   yasashii jikan ga atta koto
Furi hodoka nakute wa   kore ijou ashi ga denai
Itsuka warikitte shimau   sore mo chigau kiga shiteru
Itami wa chikuseki shite yuku   kono omoi haretsu shisou ni

Aruku no wa dekiru   saa mae e susume hikari wo shinjite
Itsuka yaritogeru higa kuru koto mada jishin ga nai
Hitori janai koto wo shinjitai   bukiyou nari ni

Itsuka kuru owari ni namida wa koboreru darou ka
Taerareru wakenai daro   konna ni mo hikisakaresou
Itsuka omoida shite miru   minna to issho ni ita koto
Mou mae sura mienai hodo naki sakebu kanashimi to

Kanji:

誰と居たのかな　もう見えない
忘れなきゃいけないことわかってる

何をしてただろう　こんな世界で
すべての終わりの始まりはもう済んでいるんだね

うつむくのはよそう　もう後悔しないで進めるように
いつか来る別れに心が引き裂かれそうになる日が来ることは
もう十分わかっている
いつかすべてが終わって何が待っているという
誰もいなくなってなお居られるか悲しみと

何を作っても失うだけ
砂の城のように脆く崩れ去っていく

ちゃんとわかってる　でも時に弱さを見せたくもなる
いつか忘れられるか　優しい時間があったこと
振りほどかなくては これ以上足が出ない
いつか割り切ってしまう　それも違う気がしてる
痛みは蓄積してゆく　この思い破裂しそうに

歩くのは出来る　さあ前へ進め光を信じて
いつかやり遂げる日が来ることまだ自信がない
ひとりじゃないことを信じたい　不器用なりに

いつか来る終わりに涙は零れるだろうか
耐えられるわけないだろ　こんなにも引き裂かれそう
いつか思い出してみる　みんなと一緒に居たこと
もう前すら見えないほど泣き叫ぶ悲しみと

English:

Who was I with? I can’t see anymore.
I know, it was something that I needed to remember.

What was I doing, again, here in this world?
The beginning of the end of everything is already complete.

Let’s not hang our heads, so that we can move on forward with no regrets.
The day will come when my heart will feel torn apart by the eventual separation;
I’m all too aware of that.
When everything ends one day, tell me, what will be waiting for me?
Will I still be able to go on when everyone is gone, through my sorrow?

No matter what I might create, I’ll only lose them.
As fragile as castles of sand, they crumble away.

I really do understand, but there are times when I don’t want to show my weakness.
Will I forget, someday, that those times of kindness happened?
If I don’t untangle this, I’ll be unable to move any further.
Someday, I’ll end up figuring this out – but I feel like that’s also wrong.
The pain accumulates, as though these thoughts might burst.

I can walk – now, move on forward; believe in the light.
I’m still not confident, that the day will come when I accomplish this.
I want to believe that I’m not alone, in my own awkward way.

I wonder, will I shed tears at the eventual end?
No, there’s no way I could hold them in; I’m already so torn apart.
Someday, I’ll try remembering that we were all together,
I’m crying so hard that I can’t even see what’s in front of my anymore, 

through my sorrow.

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